Everything happens for a reason.

This week I came down with bronchitis and I felt like a steamy pile of dog poo.

I’m going to keep this short and sweet today I just wanted to give Holly Smith from Holly’s Touch Photography more recognition because she deserves it.

She asked me what felt like at random, (which is where the everything happens for a reason comes into play) late Monday night if she could take some photos of me the next day.

I was hesitant to go, but I said yes. Hesitant because I was sick and just wanted to rest, I had my kids at the time she wanted to do it, and my social anxiety is usually at a 10. I said yes, my mom said she’d watch my kids when she got out of work, and I mustered up the courage to just do it.

I’ve been doing a lot of self improvement since the end of April and I swear you guys it just keeps getting better. I’ve always had confidence/self esteem issues. Wanting to stay true to myself but feeling like I wasn’t good enough. Looking at other women’s pictures and thinking I wished I looked like them.

Holly is such an amazing photographer to work with, she made me feel very comfortable. Reassuring me when I was being self conscious, we laughed together and I loved that it just felt like fun. She did amazing work on editing the photos to look grungy and that’s why I loved them so much more. She made me feel like one of the women I used to look at and think I wanted to be them! She gave me the confidence I’ve been longing for and made me finally see what others have tried so hard to before.

Another point I’d like to quickly make is that I don’t do a lot of things for me. Even if you’re nervous, have social anxiety, feel like you just can’t do something, my advice is to just DO IT. Seriously. If I hadn’t done this look what I would have missed out on. You can do whatever you put your mind to. You are worth it. Do something for YOU.

Here’s a few of the shots:

Now go view the rest on her Facebook page here at Holly’s Touch Photography

Make sure to give her page a like too! She deserves it.

Thank you, Holly. I’m forever grateful.




Music that helps my anxiety/puts me in a good mood!

You know when you can’t focus because you heart is racing, your mind won’t stop creating awful thoughts, breathing like you ran a marathon, shaking like you drank a pot of coffee and 2 Redbulls,
that was me this morning while driving to therapy…

I went to talk about some trauma in my past so I can move past it in a health way, and become a better version of myself. I didn’t want to, I was scared, I didn’t know what was going to happen. My mind was telling me I was going to chicken out or that it would ruin the next couple days because I was going to dwell on everything we spoke about today..

On the drive I put on my “anxiety” playlist and just listened.

Music clears my mind.
Music touches my soul.
Music calms my nerves.
Music puts me in a good mood.

I felt 10x better just listening and not thinking. I calmed down and repeated “I can do this!” between songs. I went into the office with a positive mind frame and I DID IT! Yes! I walked out proudstood tall and then jammed some more on my way home.

I love to listen to any and all Senses Fail, Halsey, and Post Malone. I’m listing a fraction of what I love to hear but I picked the songs that have a meaning to me, from the lyrics or songs that are just fun and put me back in a good mood if I’m feeling blah.

Maybe you can find a new song to help pick you up too!

There’s slower songs that I love the lyrics to which help me breathe while listening and of course upbeat/fun songs to boost your mood!
Alessia Cara – Scars to Your Beautiful
Angus & Julia Stone – Big Jet Plane
Animal Collective – My Girls
The B-52’s – Dance this Mess Around
Balance and Composure – Echo
Billie Eilish – idontwannabeyouanymore
Bishop Briggs – Wild Horses
Black Sabbath – Iron Man
Blind Melon – No Rain
Blink-182 – She’s out of her Mind
Brand New – Sic Transit Gloria…Glory Fades
Cardi B & YG – She Bad
Cardi B – Bodak Yellow
The Chainsmokers  Ft. Rozes – Roses
City and Colour – The Girl
City and Colour – Silver and Gold
Clean Bandit Ft. Sean Paul – Rockabye
Dirty Heads – Oxygen
Dua Lipa – New Rules
A Fine Frenzy – Electric Twist
G-Eazy & Halsey – Him & I
G-Eazy & Bebe Rexha – Me, Myself, & I
Gabbie Hanna – Out loud
The Gaslight Anthem – “45”
George Ezra – Budapest
Halsey – Lie (anything by Halsey)
Hootie & The Blowfish – Only wanna be with you
Icona Pop Ft. Charli XCX – I love it
Imagine Dragons – Thunder
Iron Maiden – Run to the Hills
Karmin – Panda (Remix)
Katy Perry – Rise
La Dispute – Such Small Hands (anything by them really)
Lady Gaga – Perfect Illusion
Logic – 1-800-273-8255
Luke Bryan – Sunrise, Sunburn, Sunset
Maria Rodrigus – This is my Fight Song
Mark Morrison – Return of the Mack
Mike Mains & The Branches – Everything’s Gonna be Alright
Modest Mouse – Float on
Nirvana – Come as You are
Panic! At the Disco – Death of a Bachelor
Panic! At the Disco – High Hopes
Party Favor & NJOMZA – Caskets
Portugal The Man – Feel it Still
Post Malone – Candy Paint (anything by him!)
Post Malone – White Iverson
Prince – When Doves Cry
Sheryl Crow – If it makes you Happy
Sia – Bird Set Free
Sia – Alive
Sia ft. Sean Paul – Cheap Thrills
Sigur Rós – Ísjaki
Tigers Jaw – Spirit Desire
Natasha Bedingfield – Pocketful of Sunshine
Violent Femmes – Blister in the Sun
Walk off the Earth – I knew you were Trouble
William Singe – Work

Remember, when in doubt – dance it out!
Until next time.

Daily Challenge 20

It’s the final challenge day!
I challenge you to pick a bad habit that you’ve been meaning to ditch and give it up!
If you have to start slowly then do so.
Whatever it is, kick that habit today!

Could be:

  • Smoking
  • Eating meat
  • Being on your phone so much
  • Watching too much TV
  • Being around negative people
  • Drinking soda/Eating junk food
  • Nail biting
  • ANYTHING! etc.

I’ll be kicking the habit of reacting so quickly.
I’ll check in with you all who are participating to see how the progress is going!

If you have a set back, that’s okay. Pick yourself back up and start again. I’ve said this before but change doesn’t happen overnight.
You’ll get there and I’ll be there with you along the way!

After you decide what habit you’re kicking, whatever it is, I’d like you to take a hot bubble bath, do a face mask, do something FOR YOU! Take a little time today for YOU! No interruptions. Just pamper yourself. It’s been a long 20 days and I’m so proud of you all. You deserve something amazing everyday, but today especially! You’ve all done amazing work.

XO Samm

This journey isn’t over..

Daily Challenge 19

Today’s challenge may be a little tough but I’m right there with ya!
I’d like for all of us to think about how many times a day we say “NO!” and turn that into a “YES!”

Let’s all be like Yes Man for a day and see how fun it can be. I watched this video here where she said yes to her children for a week and it was amazing to watch! Check out the video and then think about what would happen if you said yes instead of no today!

I’m really excited to hear all the funny and interesting stories that come of this and to share mine too!

Have an exciting day today everyone!

XO Samm


Challenge Day 18

I’m super excited for this one!

Today I challenge you to write a letter to yourself about whatever you’d like. I’m going to write half of the letter about how I’m feeling mentally right now and the other half to my future self. On my 30th birthday (in 2 years) I’ll open it and read it to myself. You can write the letter and do whatever you wish. Maybe you’re forgiving yourself for all the things you think you’ve done wrong and ripping it up OR writing to your future self as well and opening it on a day you choose. Just write to YOU.

THEN I challenge you to do something NEW with a brand NEW person/friend. It may not be today, make plans to do something for a future date. Push yourself to get out there and make new relationships with someone you haven’t yet! Then share with us what that was like! I seriously am so pumped to hear these stories!

Have a wonderful day!
XO Samm

Daily Challenge 17

It’s Tuesday! 17 days in, only 3 left! The journey here on my blog isn’t over after all of this though! I have many more things to share with you all.

Today I challenge you to do something simple but nice for someone close to you. Whether it be a friend, family member, spouse, neighbor, co-worker, etc. It doesn’t have to cost money, it doesn’t even have to take up a bunch of your time, so there’s no excuses! Anything that would make them smile and brighten their day.

Here’s a couple examples:

  • Ask to run one of their errands for them
  • Let them know how you appreciate them
  • Ask, “How are you—really?” Then do nothing but listen and respond to what you hear for as long as they’d like to talk.
  • Give them a big long hug!
  • Write a note and leave it somewhere for them to find later
  • If you can/want to get them a SIMPLE gift just to show you’re thinking of them

Those are just a few things you could do, you know the people you’re close with best, surprise them and let them know they’re on your mind!

I can’t wait to see all of the creative and happy things that come of this!
XO Samm

Daily Challenge 16

It’s Monday! Let’s make the most of it!

I challenge you to reach out to someone you haven’t in a long time. No matter how much anxiety it gives you to call them or message them. You could maybe even go give them a visit! Push past the fear and reach out! Life is short and you never know what connection you might regain from it!

Also try a brain game app today! Keep your brain healthy and focused! I use Lumosity! You can read this article that has the 10 best apps for training your brain!

Check it out here!

Let me know how it goes when you reach out! I wanna hear a bunch of amazing stories today!

XO Samm